Unemployed...still!

I have officially been unemployed for 25 days as of today. I have been on 5 interviews, invited for 2 more interviews, offered one position (which I turned down), did not finish one of the interviews when we realized the position would not work with my school schedule, did not get one of the jobs but was encouraged to apply for future positions due to the fact I was a strong candidate, and I continue to wait for a response from the other two! One of the said jobs I'm waiting for a response from is the one I WANT! So here I sit and wait...

This time has become a lesson in trusting in the LORD. I had the recommended two months worth of bills saved up and come December 1st I will have been unemployed for two months and therefore my savings will be depleted. I have begun to freak out a little bit and yet I feel the calming presence of the LORD! I have said a few times over the last week that this month of unemployment has been the best thing for my relationship with the LORD. I have had time each morning to spend a significant amount of time reading, journaling and just being still with the LORD. I have been able to spend time praying for people in my life and doing things to serve within the community. I still have a great peace about turning down the job offer a month ago. When I begin to question that decision I am reminded about how sweet this time has been with my LORD, and ultimately I believe that is more valuable. And therefore I sit and I wait...

I honestly do believe that I got the job that I really want. It is a job working with Mental Health & Mental Retardation (MHMR) of Tarrant County. The position is a Family Intervention Specialist. I would have a caseload of 20-30 kids ages 4-17 who have mental health issues and whose families have decided to be a part of this program. I would meet with the kids either every week or every other week and work on their goals. I would make my own schedule (I schedule when I see clients) and therefore will work great with my school schedule. I honestly think that I would excel at this position and that my gifts, talents and education would be a great asset to this program. The interview went great and my interviewer made it sound as though I have the job. MHMR is a huge agency and therefore there is a LOT of paper work and they are not quick to do things (so I've heard from current employees) and therefore I sit here and I wait...

Things are tight financially and I'm not able to do some of the things I desire to do, but yet I am in one of the best places emotionally and spiritually that I have been in in a long time! And therefore I will continue to sit here and wait and most importantly, trust!