Have you ever....

Have you ever been blamed for something that you did not do? Have you ever felt as though people were holding your past sins over your head as though they defined who you are? Have you ever felt as though no matter what you said, it would fall upon deaf ears? Have you ever felt as though you would never be able to make things ok? Have you ever felt as though every step you took and every move you made was being judged? Have you ever felt as though the people who say they love you, are attacking you? Have you ever thought that love should look differently? Have you ever felt like someone was always looking for a fault, even though you were doing everything right? If so welcome to my world!

It's interesting to me how I can be in such a great spot and how the enemy thinks he knows exactly how to hurt me and tries to knock me down... well guess what?!?! I'm not falling! 2009 has begun very interestingly for me. It has been hard and yet though all of that I have grown so much closer to God. I would say that these last few weeks have been some of the sweetest times I've had with the Lord in awhile. Life has been very busy and then there is the situation explained above that is a daily struggle and yet at the end of the day I am rejoicing because I am a child of God.

Yesterday someone dear dear dear to my heart called me out of the blue. She is someone who since I have known her, has been a prayer warrior for me. As we were talking she told me that she wanted to encourage me by telling me that my worth is not found in the relationships I have here on earth. That the people who say they love me may hurt and disappoint me but that I should never find my worth in that. Her call came at such a perfect time for me as I needed that reminder. I will press on towards the goal and keep my eyes on HIM!